最近第二批国民服务的朋友们终于结束了为期三个月的训练， 一个一个都回到了家乡。
看着他们从最初的千万的不原意，带着百般无奈地入伍，到现在依依不舍地离开营地，感叹时间好像真的可以改变很多东西。
问起营里生活，他们总是滔滔不绝地告诉我在营地里所发生的精彩事迹，他们经历了我们无法亲身体验的人，事和物，心里不禁有点羡慕。
我想，我好像又错过了一些....一些生活最真挚的体验。
我朋友说她很想念营里的朋友，我从来都不是个擅长安慰的人，只能告诉他说，这就是人生，到了站就该有上下车，分分离离，离离分分，这就是人生不变的定律吧，就如生老病死。
天下无不散的筵席，短短的几个字，却诉说了无尽的无奈。
是啊， 无奈。
说的这么平静，好像我已经习惯了面对离别。
其实一点也不，我不喜欢离别，更讨厌离别前那种不舍 的感觉。
我喜欢参各种不同的生活营，因为在那短短几天里， 来自不同地方和背景的朋友都暂时抛开了各自的枷锁，尽情地挥洒我们不自所谓的青春和热情。然而离别的日子终究来临，不管我们多么不舍，却只能悄悄地擦拭泪水，挥手说再见。
只是当时我们信誓旦旦说一定要时常 保持联络，现在又还有谁能遵守当时的承诺？
而我们的友谊呢？ 又能维持多久？
说好的，我们谁也不能把谁给忘了，只是到了最后，我们还能信守承诺吗？
缅怀过去，好像成了我的习惯，一个怎样戒也戒不了的，坏习惯。
是啊，得不到的总是最美好的，而回忆总是精彩而叫人难以忘怀的。
五年的中学生涯，因为你们，一切都变得不平凡，一些琐碎的小事却却叫人铭记于心中。
我拼命地拼凑记忆拼图，试着找回熟悉的味道。因为我以为只要守住了一个从前，就能得到我想要的一个永远。然而，疏离的脚步，是谁走了太远？错过的，我这才发现。
现实的社会不允许我们停下脚步，我们只能一味的往前冲。累了，停下来的时候，身边的风景再也不一样了。
不再为了同样的目标奋斗，不再生活在同样的环境，不同的体验，不同的话题，我想我们错过不只是彼此的生活，而是更多。
说了再见，是否真的又代表会再相见？
ps:我想你了，而你呢？
Monday, June 7, 2010
注定
前阵子读完了藤井树的《流转之年》，思绪又掉入文字的漩涡里..不知道为什么，他用的文字虽
然简单易了，但一旦组织在一起，却总是这么容易的牵动着我，那股澎湃，久久不能平息。
《流转之年》
国二时，在升学压力的荼毒下，想着，关于人生，我们是否真的有选择的权利？
十五岁的夏天，莫名其妙的高温，莫名其妙的钟声缭绕，
莫名其妙的，我们突然感触，我们都已经不再是孩子了；
高中三年，男女间暧昧模糊滋长，尝过暗恋的酸涩，我们重要体验，不只是时间会让人长大，失恋也会；
当你等待多了，你就会变得很擅长等待，你会知道哪些人值得等待，哪些人该怎么等待，
又有哪些人你再怎么等，永远也等不到；
当千帆过尽，发现那人原来在灯火阑珊处时，你会渐渐明白，一种叫[注定]的东西...
谁也不知道明天会如何，而几经多少流转之间，
会让我们在回想过去的时候会感到欣慰？ 感到骄傲？还是只是会感到悲伤跟懊悔呢？
未来一到， 就会有答案了...................吧。
是啊，我们的人生都是在等待，或着说我们都擅长了等待
于是，我们无时无刻都在等待。
下雨时，等待雨停
雨停了，等待阳光
寂寞了，等待爱情
受伤了，等待痊愈
转转兜兜地，我们一直都活在等待又等待的轮回里
等待莫些人莫些事甚至莫些奇迹
只是，在我们等了又等，等了又等过后，又有谁会开始明白和相信
[注定]
这种东西。
冥冥中，好像有些事情都早已经注定好了
注定了，下一个转角谁该与谁相遇
注定了，下一秒谁又牵动了谁的一生
注定了，谁就是这么不平凡
也许吧，有些人会认为只要努力，我们就能改变，就能拥有自己想要得一切
成功，地位，名利 一切 的一切
无法否认的，有些东西我们只要肯努力肯付出，我们就能得到相等的回报
但有些事情，不管我们再怎么拼命，好像也改变不了
就像是爱情， 有人说过，在爱情的世界里没有对与错，只有爱与不爱
只要感觉对上了，就决定了要义无反顾
[注定]
可能说穿了，是我懒得与命运去搏斗
是我太过于懦弱，是我缺乏勇气
不够勇敢 地面对
万一当我费尽一切力气去奋斗过后，结果却不是我想要得
在付出与回报之间，失去了平衡点
我想那个时候的我大概会疯掉吧
恩..疯掉
恩，注定
然简单易了，但一旦组织在一起，却总是这么容易的牵动着我，那股澎湃，久久不能平息。
《流转之年》
国二时，在升学压力的荼毒下，想着，关于人生，我们是否真的有选择的权利？
十五岁的夏天，莫名其妙的高温，莫名其妙的钟声缭绕，
莫名其妙的，我们突然感触，我们都已经不再是孩子了；
高中三年，男女间暧昧模糊滋长，尝过暗恋的酸涩，我们重要体验，不只是时间会让人长大，失恋也会；
当你等待多了，你就会变得很擅长等待，你会知道哪些人值得等待，哪些人该怎么等待，
又有哪些人你再怎么等，永远也等不到；
当千帆过尽，发现那人原来在灯火阑珊处时，你会渐渐明白，一种叫[注定]的东西...
谁也不知道明天会如何，而几经多少流转之间，
会让我们在回想过去的时候会感到欣慰？ 感到骄傲？还是只是会感到悲伤跟懊悔呢？
未来一到， 就会有答案了...................吧。
是啊，我们的人生都是在等待，或着说我们都擅长了等待
于是，我们无时无刻都在等待。
下雨时，等待雨停
雨停了，等待阳光
寂寞了，等待爱情
受伤了，等待痊愈
转转兜兜地，我们一直都活在等待又等待的轮回里
等待莫些人莫些事甚至莫些奇迹
只是，在我们等了又等，等了又等过后，又有谁会开始明白和相信
[注定]
这种东西。
冥冥中，好像有些事情都早已经注定好了
注定了，下一个转角谁该与谁相遇
注定了，下一秒谁又牵动了谁的一生
注定了，谁就是这么不平凡
也许吧，有些人会认为只要努力，我们就能改变，就能拥有自己想要得一切
成功，地位，名利 一切 的一切
无法否认的，有些东西我们只要肯努力肯付出，我们就能得到相等的回报
但有些事情，不管我们再怎么拼命，好像也改变不了
就像是爱情， 有人说过，在爱情的世界里没有对与错，只有爱与不爱
只要感觉对上了，就决定了要义无反顾
[注定]
可能说穿了，是我懒得与命运去搏斗
是我太过于懦弱，是我缺乏勇气
不够勇敢 地面对
万一当我费尽一切力气去奋斗过后，结果却不是我想要得
在付出与回报之间，失去了平衡点
我想那个时候的我大概会疯掉吧
恩..疯掉
恩，注定
Friday, June 4, 2010
八字
前几天叫我的补习老师算了八字....爸知道我要去算命后态度很坚决地 反对，反正又不用钱，不算白不算吧。哈哈
补习完后带着很不安的心, 我和玲都耐心地在等老师。
已经是晚上十点多了，终于轮到了我们，紧张+兴奋+害怕, 人总是这样矛盾的是吧? =)
玲的八字很好， 老师说她有很多贵人一路都在帮她， 我很不要脸地自认为我就是她其中一个贵人..哈哈， 但我应该的确帮过他不少吧
我的结果很不理想，老师说的很准，真的很准..
老师说我身体不是很好，要我小心家庭的遗传病，后来我妈才跟我说原来我外婆有糖尿病，唉 ..我偏偏又很爱吃重口味的东西，希望可以成功戒口吧！
还有我stamina不好，真的有够准！医生也说过，因为我曾经试过几次差点晕倒，那种感觉真的有够难受和恐怖..还有说到我爸跟他家人的关系之类的
老师说我的人生会面对很多大大小小的考验，是怎样避也避不了的..虽然我早已经知道我的人生不是那么平平顺顺，但亲口听老师说到的时候还是有点难以接受，毕竟，有谁不想自己的人生一帆风顺，做什么事都顺顺利利吧 ..我还是会忍不住羡慕玲..因为她在面对困难时总是有人帮忙，而我呢？好吧，老师要我冷静地面对那些考验，千万不要失去自我。我想，我现在就在面对我人生的其中一个考验吧。
除此之外，我还有第六感。或许有些人不相信这类东西，但是无可否认的，在这世界上还是有东西是科学原理解释不到的。有时候我会突然想到一些东西或是有某些预感，而事情真的就这样发生了。很神奇对吧，偏偏它有发生了。
回家跟妈说了这些结果， 我想她应该是担心我吧，一直跟我说这些东西不能完全相信的，妈，安~~~我知道的，放心。
虽然有些东西是一早就已经注定的，但我想，我们应该努力地试着用自己的力量去改变吧
毕竟那是我们的人生，走怎样的路应该由我们来主宰
谁的人生没有风雨，我只不过比他们多了一点吧 ..也许，我的人生也会比他们来的更精彩呀
加油，杨紫微！！！
补习完后带着很不安的心, 我和玲都耐心地在等老师。
已经是晚上十点多了，终于轮到了我们，紧张+兴奋+害怕, 人总是这样矛盾的是吧? =)
玲的八字很好， 老师说她有很多贵人一路都在帮她， 我很不要脸地自认为我就是她其中一个贵人..哈哈， 但我应该的确帮过他不少吧
我的结果很不理想，老师说的很准，真的很准..
老师说我身体不是很好，要我小心家庭的遗传病，后来我妈才跟我说原来我外婆有糖尿病，唉 ..我偏偏又很爱吃重口味的东西，希望可以成功戒口吧！
还有我stamina不好，真的有够准！医生也说过，因为我曾经试过几次差点晕倒，那种感觉真的有够难受和恐怖..还有说到我爸跟他家人的关系之类的
老师说我的人生会面对很多大大小小的考验，是怎样避也避不了的..虽然我早已经知道我的人生不是那么平平顺顺，但亲口听老师说到的时候还是有点难以接受，毕竟，有谁不想自己的人生一帆风顺，做什么事都顺顺利利吧 ..我还是会忍不住羡慕玲..因为她在面对困难时总是有人帮忙，而我呢？好吧，老师要我冷静地面对那些考验，千万不要失去自我。我想，我现在就在面对我人生的其中一个考验吧。
除此之外，我还有第六感。或许有些人不相信这类东西，但是无可否认的，在这世界上还是有东西是科学原理解释不到的。有时候我会突然想到一些东西或是有某些预感，而事情真的就这样发生了。很神奇对吧，偏偏它有发生了。
回家跟妈说了这些结果， 我想她应该是担心我吧，一直跟我说这些东西不能完全相信的，妈，安~~~我知道的，放心。
虽然有些东西是一早就已经注定的，但我想，我们应该努力地试着用自己的力量去改变吧
毕竟那是我们的人生，走怎样的路应该由我们来主宰
谁的人生没有风雨，我只不过比他们多了一点吧 ..也许，我的人生也会比他们来的更精彩呀
加油，杨紫微！！！
Thursday, June 3, 2010
HATE HATE HATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE FORM 6 SERIOUSLY!!!!!
Form 6 really SUCKs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now, i had regretted.WHY WHY WHY I CHOsedFORM 6 INSTEAD OF COLLEGE.?!!!!
oH, because i'm STUPID!!! yes, definately i'm.sigh~~~
I was too naive. I had too much confidence
I THOUGHT i can survive in form 6.
I THOUGHT i can cope it although i already knew it's hard.
I THOUGHT i like science so much until i couldn't let it go.
I THOUGHT i had choosed tho correct way for me and my family.
I THOUGHT form 6 is not as hard as those senior told me.
I THOUGHT i'm smart enough compared to others.
I THOUGHT i like bio more then physics. zzzzzz
Yet, everything had proved that i was wrong.
i couldn't survive in form 6.I hate it .I hate everything.
I hate exam mood, i hate books, i hate bio, i hate maths, i hate schooling and i hate STPM.The stupid paper that going to decide our future.
Yes, nobody will care and know how much effort you had put in , they only c our result.No matter how good you score in your monthly exam, once you didn't do well in this paper.EVERYTHING is GONE.
I couldn't cope it although i just touched the 1st chapter. AND NOW, Im DYING.
it's totally different with form 4 n form 6.what the hell?!!!!.Especially maths, it really drived me crazy. Those questions and alphabet seemed like alien to me. ARghhhhh, kinda stupid.
Ya , i like science when i was in form 4 and form 5.It's really interesting.I Never ever regreted that I had choosed science stream in form 4.I was Glad that i had made a good decision.BUT FORM 6.........MY godness!!!!!!!!!!! I really admired those who scored well in science stream.How can they did it and why can't i?!! well, i'm not genius maybe and the most important 1 was WE HAd DIFFERENT BRAIN!!!
Yes, i had choosed the best way for my parents BUT NOT FOR ME!!!
Form 6 did saved alot of money compared to college but i m suffering now..I ' had i been stressed up everyday .it was really torture and frustrasted when doing works.
Do til half way then stuck here stuck there, wrong wrong wrong again and again.
FORM 6 WAS REALLY HARD.SUPER DUPER HARD. Remembered that mr wong had told us that enter form 4 WAS just like crossing a river but enter form 6 was like crossing a ocean .Now , i believed it.IT's much much harder that what i thought.Alot of scientific term and formula need to memorise , alot of understanding and alot of application.A person like me who brain cannot turn fast sure DIE.
Yes, i thought i wassmart .I didn't put much effort in SPM yet I managed to score 9a's .
but i was wrong .Form 6 made me felt that i'm nothing actually, i'm brainless.
TOP
Everyone hate her.
She was my bio teacher.She was CRAZY!!!! UNREASONABLE!!!! I cant imagine how scary she is when upper sixes told me her story.AND now, i can understand why everybody hates her so much.
we had been chased out twice during her lesson.She used to scold us every lesson.
STUPID, RIGID, BRAINLESS,RIDICULUS,WORST BATCH,SEI SEI BAN BAN n etc
She even asked us to write lines just because we can't give her the WORD she wants.
maybe she wasa good bio teacher and the most experienced, but so wat?! i really can't
get used to her way.AND I REALIZED that i don't like bio at all.Alot of terms, processes and ect need to memorise!!!!
lastly
I really REGRETTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T.T
I HATE FORM 6 SERIOUSLY!!!!!
Form 6 really SUCKs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now, i had regretted.WHY WHY WHY I CHOsedFORM 6 INSTEAD OF COLLEGE.?!!!!
oH, because i'm STUPID!!! yes, definately i'm.sigh~~~
I was too naive. I had too much confidence
I THOUGHT i can survive in form 6.
I THOUGHT i can cope it although i already knew it's hard.
I THOUGHT i like science so much until i couldn't let it go.
I THOUGHT i had choosed tho correct way for me and my family.
I THOUGHT form 6 is not as hard as those senior told me.
I THOUGHT i'm smart enough compared to others.
I THOUGHT i like bio more then physics. zzzzzz
Yet, everything had proved that i was wrong.
i couldn't survive in form 6.I hate it .I hate everything.
I hate exam mood, i hate books, i hate bio, i hate maths, i hate schooling and i hate STPM.The stupid paper that going to decide our future.
Yes, nobody will care and know how much effort you had put in , they only c our result.No matter how good you score in your monthly exam, once you didn't do well in this paper.EVERYTHING is GONE.
I couldn't cope it although i just touched the 1st chapter. AND NOW, Im DYING.
it's totally different with form 4 n form 6.what the hell?!!!!.Especially maths, it really drived me crazy. Those questions and alphabet seemed like alien to me. ARghhhhh, kinda stupid.
Ya , i like science when i was in form 4 and form 5.It's really interesting.I Never ever regreted that I had choosed science stream in form 4.I was Glad that i had made a good decision.BUT FORM 6.........MY godness!!!!!!!!!!! I really admired those who scored well in science stream.How can they did it and why can't i?!! well, i'm not genius maybe and the most important 1 was WE HAd DIFFERENT BRAIN!!!
Yes, i had choosed the best way for my parents BUT NOT FOR ME!!!
Form 6 did saved alot of money compared to college but i m suffering now..I ' had i been stressed up everyday .it was really torture and frustrasted when doing works.
Do til half way then stuck here stuck there, wrong wrong wrong again and again.
FORM 6 WAS REALLY HARD.SUPER DUPER HARD. Remembered that mr wong had told us that enter form 4 WAS just like crossing a river but enter form 6 was like crossing a ocean .Now , i believed it.IT's much much harder that what i thought.Alot of scientific term and formula need to memorise , alot of understanding and alot of application.A person like me who brain cannot turn fast sure DIE.
Yes, i thought i wassmart .I didn't put much effort in SPM yet I managed to score 9a's .
but i was wrong .Form 6 made me felt that i'm nothing actually, i'm brainless.
TOP
Everyone hate her.
She was my bio teacher.She was CRAZY!!!! UNREASONABLE!!!! I cant imagine how scary she is when upper sixes told me her story.AND now, i can understand why everybody hates her so much.
we had been chased out twice during her lesson.She used to scold us every lesson.
STUPID, RIGID, BRAINLESS,RIDICULUS,WORST BATCH,SEI SEI BAN BAN n etc
She even asked us to write lines just because we can't give her the WORD she wants.
maybe she wasa good bio teacher and the most experienced, but so wat?! i really can't
get used to her way.AND I REALIZED that i don't like bio at all.Alot of terms, processes and ect need to memorise!!!!
lastly
I really REGRETTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T.T
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